18 weeks 4 days

30 May

I just wanted to pop in to let anyone who is still out there know that the baby and I are doing really well.  We just had our anatomy scan and everything looks just as it should be.   AND……IT’S A GIRL!!!

I just feel so relieved.  After the appointment Tim held me and I just couldn’t stop crying.  It’s finally happening.  All that heartache and grief…all those years of loss and thinking this will never happen….and we’re finally here.  I know there’s still 20+ more weeks to go, but I’ve made it this far.    We’ve made it this far.

Maybe now this will start to feel real.  For the past few months it has felt like it was happening to someone else, even though it’s my belly that’s growing.  I’ve been in it mentally from the very beginning, I’ve been present and happy…but it still felt (feels?) surreal…like after years of loss, how can this finally be happening?

But it is.  That’s our little girl inside who flutters around at night and gets stronger every day.  She’ll never erase the past two years, but I know she’ll make them worth it.  She already has.  It’s still hard to imagine we’ll be bringing a baby home in October, but I feel like that’s okay.  One day at a time.  And today?  There’s joy.

Sending all of you love and strength…I hope each and everyone of you gets to feel this happiness in one way or another.  I believe you will.



24 Responses to “18 weeks 4 days”

  1. Amy May 30, 2012 at 12:23 pm #

    So lovely to read this – yay for a little girl! So happy for you. I hope it seems real to you sooner than for me – I have only four weeks to go and it still seems surreal, like it’s happening to somebody else, as you said.

  2. Trisha May 30, 2012 at 12:37 pm #

    I am so so happy for you Courtney. Thanks for keeping us in the loop. I hope baby girl continues to grow strong and healthy, you of all people deserve this! Lots of love!

  3. Daryl May 30, 2012 at 12:56 pm #

    I’m so happy you’re both doing well. Hugs to you and your little girl!

  4. R May 30, 2012 at 2:25 pm #

    I can’t wait to meet her and smother her with kisses!!!!

  5. traathy May 30, 2012 at 3:18 pm #

    I am soooooo unbelievably happy for you Courtney!!!!! Ack!!! That baby girl being placed in your arms is going to be the best moment of your life 🙂

    Then you get to dress them up and a whole lotta shopping starts!!!

  6. Courtney May 30, 2012 at 7:09 pm #

    I just LOVE seeing posts from you! I just read your first couple paragraphs to my husband and he is so thrilled for you – said that he can’t imagine what the last two years have been like for you. We could never get pregnant – and in all honesty – I think that’s easier than getting pregnant and losing those pregnancies. I guess it’s all perspective, but I just can’t imagine what you’ve been through.

    A GIRL!!!! Yay! I’m thrilled for you!

  7. missohkay May 30, 2012 at 7:55 pm #

    This makes my day! Yay for girls!!!

  8. Justine May 30, 2012 at 8:17 pm #

    My heart is so happy for you. 🙂 Beautiful little one … sending you, and her, my love.

  9. jjiraffe May 30, 2012 at 8:36 pm #

    “One day at a time. And today? There’s joy.”

    Truly, from all around the world there is joy, for you. Lots of it here, in Arkansas 😉

  10. robin May 30, 2012 at 8:47 pm #

    Yay! So exciting to learn the sex of the baby!!! It definitely does make it feel more real.

  11. Christina May 31, 2012 at 5:32 am #

    Congratulations! Little girl’s are great! Can’t wait for the next update!

  12. MJ May 31, 2012 at 6:13 am #

    YAY!!! So excited for you!! That is such great news. I’ve been reading and keeping up, but have been really, really, really bad at commenting. But know that I’ve been thinking about you this whole time! Can’t wait for more updates about lil’ baby girl. Much love, MJ

  13. marwil May 31, 2012 at 7:28 am #

    Ah, how sweet. I’m so glad all is well with you and baby girl!

  14. Wife June 1, 2012 at 1:06 pm #

    What an amazing day!! I can’t stop smiling just thinking of you two! So happy and thanks for sharing.

  15. Artistmouse June 1, 2012 at 1:20 pm #

    It’s great to hear read this update! Congratulations on your baby girl; they are so much fun . . . lots of beautiful outfits and dresses. Don’t forget to enjoy your pregnancy as much as you can. I don’t think I allowed myself to enjoy it as much as I should have. I think I waited to late to start enjoying it.

  16. Emily @ablanket2keep June 1, 2012 at 1:47 pm #

    So nice to read an update. Congrats on your little Girl! Thinking about you often and so glad everything is going great!

  17. l June 2, 2012 at 11:49 am #

    JOY to hear from you and get to share in the good news.
    Thoughts and prayers are with you everyday, even when you are holding your breath and not posting you are thought of and held in happy bubbles of caring.
    BABY GIRL!!!! Congratulations to you all!

  18. Kristen June 3, 2012 at 7:40 am #

    So happy to see this update. So incredibly happy for you!

  19. embracingtherain June 3, 2012 at 1:14 pm #

    Hooray! I’m so happy for you Courtney!

  20. starfishkittydreams June 5, 2012 at 2:01 pm #

    OMG! Congratulations! So happy for you!

  21. Jem July 24, 2012 at 4:54 am #

    Haven’t heard from you in a while. Everything ok?

    • bodegabliss July 24, 2012 at 10:16 am #

      Thanks for checking in, Jem! Things are thankfully still going really well. I was thinking about trying to write a post this week. It’s nice to know someone is still out there. 😉 Hope you are well.

  22. l July 24, 2012 at 6:45 pm #

    Joyful and thrilling to see your 7/24 remark above. I continue to check in and continue to send hopeful thoughts your way. You are not ignored, you are respected and lots of fingers are still crossed. May things continue to progress well and may your world only get better!

  23. luna July 28, 2012 at 10:42 pm #

    hey there, just checking to see how you’re doing. I know you’re not around these parts much, but just thinking of you and your little one. you’ll have to let us know when she arrives, ok?!

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