I’m not sure what happened yesterday, maybe there were a bunch of people who had Veteran’s Day off that felt compelled to search for depressing women who have suffered multiple miscarriages, but wow! I go away for a few days, get curious if anyone has read while I was gone and BAM! Yesterday my readers jumped dramatically! But today it’s back down to my friends who I’ve paid to keep reading (Ha! Not really. It’s really just my mom and she’s required to read because she birthed me. Hi Mom!). Even if it only lasted a day, I was just so happy to see people found me somehow.
Anyway…..hello and welcome if you new-random-strangers are still out there somewhere! I’m the depressed woman who has suffered multiple miscarriages you were looking for!
In other news, I’m beginning to see a pattern with my emotions. A few weeks go by and all I can think or talk about is my sadness and frustration with losing my pregnancies, and then another few weeks go by and I avoid anything and everything miscarriage-related. Which means, sadly, this blog. I think I put a lot of pressure on myself to write these deep emotional posts, when really…why do I do that? I know I wouldn’t only want to read posts like that. Snore.
I’ve been so busy these last few weeks all I can think about at this moment is sleep. I only have about 6 more hours and I can achieve that goal. I had a workshop in the city yesterday that was really great, but can I bitch here for a moment about something? I mean, maybe it’s the norm now and I’m just (ahem) old school, and until this year I hadn’t been in a school atmosphere or attended a workshop like this, but why is it that ADULTS think it’s okay to let their cell phone ring and answer it in the middle of a class? Did I miss when this became okay and not even the slightest bit rude? Are kids doing this in college now and professors are just turning their back to it? Gah, I just find it so amazing that grown men and women can do this. And yesterday behind me a woman in her fifties was scrolling through texts or or calls or something at an alarming BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP rate for more than 5 minutes! I’m not even exaggerating like I like to do! For five minutes I listened to this beeping! I finally turned around and looked at her and she saw me and my annoyance, and still continued to BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP. And of course, I sat next to the one woman that believed it was okay to keep receiving calls and having her DROID-robot-voice announce every time she got a text message. I mean, are we really that important? I think not, folks.
Whew. Okay, thanks for that. I had to get that off my chest.
I hope you guys all have a lovely weekend. I only have two more to get ready for the mother-in-law coming for Thanksgiving (of which I am cooking for the first time in my life!). I’m trying not to be nervous, but, um, yeah, I’m failing at that.
Happy Friday, all!